Timing.

So, I just had my interview for a job I really wanted. Quitting my full time job already you may wonder? No, instead just wanting to add another one. The position is youth leader for a high school youth group. I met with some parents and kids and the interview went great. They said they would love to have me and were really excited. However, on the way home I realized I should not accept the job.

Just about a week and a half ago I posted about complaining and being stressed out about my job at the Physical Therapy Center. I wrote about feeling too busy and tired and not having enough time to see my friends and family. This youth director job would make me way more busy and have me running around twice as much. I cannot go into this new job having any reservations because the kids deserve someone who would be able to give 100% to it.

The thing is, I really really wish I could do it. I like building relationships. I love youth and the way they look at life. I miss doing GEMS this year. I miss being around kids and talking to them about Jesus and serving others. I miss making a picture frame made out of feathers and memorizing Bible verses.

I guess I just miss feeling like I am making a difference in at least someones life. Sometimes at my current job I wonder what is the point? Yes, I have met some wonderful people coming in week after week for Physical Therapy but a lot of times I feel like I am just shuffling around paperwork and dealing with Insurance companies. I feel like God can use me more. I thought that may be through this youth leader job but I realized I am not able to give it all I should. Therefore, I will keep looking for different opportunities to give back.

Because I WANT to give back to a God who has blessed me way more than I deserve.

Cheers to that.